Monday, October 22, 2012

Frozen Hope

If you dont know, embryo transfers are done on a full bladder. When your bladder is full it straightens out the uterus allowing the doctor to shoot the embryo straight into the uterus.

It would be hard to discuss this transfer with out flashing back to my last one. During my mock transfer I was advised to drink more water than 32 ounces because my bladder wasn't full enough. So for the real transfer I complied. When I got to the office, I had to pee pretty bad. After sitting in the waiting room for a half hour, I thought I was going to die. Really I did. I had to empty "just a bit" twice. I thought I was going to die. When it was finally over and I could pee, I couldn't. I seriously think I was near kidney failure. It was an awful experience.

Fast forward to the day of the transfer.

I only started drinking water a half hour before we had to arrive. I was dreading this. I kept saying to the hubs... If I'm not full, they can wait. I just don't care!! We walked in, I barely had to go. I complied with their water drinking demands and drank what they told me to, so I didn't care. The nurse came in to get me, asked if I felt full. I said I drank the requirements, but it's hard to tell if I'm full because last time was so horrible. Eye roll from nursing staff.. They've heard that before. So can you imagine my delight, seriously it was delight, when the nurse checked and said not only was I full, but I could empty, and I didn't even feel like I had to go... At all!!!!!!! You would have thought I won the lottery, I was so damn excited about my non painful full bladder!! My husband and I high fived each other because we we're shocked! I think at that moment my husband realized how overly full my bladder was last time. I was so happy, knowing I wouldn't be in crazy pain for the next hour. Relief!!

That relief was short lived because our RE waltzed in with one piece of paper. A picture of an embryo. Just one... There should be two. Why is there only one???? Are the rest of these embryos goners leaving us with this one shot? However, I could see the picture from across the room... A HATCHING EMBRYO!! I knew that was great news. So she sits down and I brace myself. She says that she knows we don't want to know anything, but she begs me to let her tell us. Now I'm already freaking out because there is only one picture. So some good news will help things right now.

She said there were 3 amazing embryos from the day 3 batch. There was no need to thaw the day 5 embryos. She said that she knows we discussed transferring 2 embryos, can still do that, but if we did that there is a strong likelihood that there will be twins.

Holy shit balls did she really just tell us good news?!? She asked how many we want to transfer. We were speechless. I thought I had prepared myself for everything. Turns out I had not prepared myself for good news. We just looked at each other. In the end, we decided to go with one. We have 5 amazing day 5 blasts frozen. Frozen hope.  Hope that if this should not work out, we still have another shot.

And without further adieux I introduce you to the incredible time traveling hatching sea monkey!!!


The transfer went smoothly. I was comfortable*. I can tell you with all sincerity, this was up there with the happiest days of our lives.

I seriously still can not wrap my head around the fact that something good just happened. We've been living worst case scenario for so long... I am so not familiar with this best case scenario ideology. What is this? Where are the hidden cameras saying this is a joke? Pinch me... Actually don't. Let me just relish in this for a minute.

*at the end of this transfer I still did not have to pee half as bad as I did when I walked in the building last time (because I dont think you quite comprehend how bad I had to pee last time!)

I was sent home with these instructions, which crack me up every time I get them.  So I leave you with this.....  DO NOT STICK ANYTHING IN YOUR VAGINA.


  1. Lol! Love the advice!!! Congrats lady! Wishing you the best!!

  2. Yay for things going so perfectly today! Sounds like it went about as well as it possibly could have and I'm hoping that's an indication of how the next two weeks will go too!

  3. oh, i understand the full badder thing, boy do i ever. at for the five month ultrasound you are also supposed to have a full bladder. they wanted me to drink a ridiculous amount of water and i complied. as we got into the car, i began to realize there was no possible way i was going to be able to hold it. five minutes into the car ride i had to have my husband stop at a starbucks because i was literally in tears. i let a little out. once we arrived, i had to wait for what seemed like forever. i begged them to allow me to relieve myself a little, they begrudgingly agreed. after that we had to wait an additional ten or fifteen minutes (its not like we were early either, we were on time). finally they led us back and i thought, well this will be over in no time, i think i'll live. WRONG. they spend a lot of time measuring everything (and of course, pushing on your bladder a lot while doing so). i had to get up TWO more times during the ultrasound to get a little more out. the pain and discomfort is not really something you can explain to someone who hasn't been through it themselves. i'm sure people think, jeez, waht's the big deal, i've had to pee really bad plenty of times. NOT THE SAME. but, i did learn something. if ever faced with this situation again, i wil definitely be drinking half the water that's recommended and i won't be starting until i'm already in the car.
    i am totally ecstatic that things appear to be going so well, sometimes the planets align and everything works out! i've got my fingers and toes crossed for you!

  4. What fantastic news!! Try not to stick anything in your vagina in the next two weeks! :-)

  5. Yay yay yay!! Such fantastic news!!! Hope you're still not sticking anything in that vagina! :)

  6. Yep, you already read my story about having to pee. Yours sounds exactly the same, only I actually wet myself rather than not being able to go at all! I don't know which is worse because they both sound pretty awful. I agree with the comment above, you can't really understand this excruciating pain unless you've been through it!


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