Saturday, July 18, 2015

Things couldn't be better

It's been a very long time since I blogged.  Out of curiosity, I came back here for a visit to see what you were all up to.  How awesome to see how much things have changed in your worlds. 

I look back at my previous posts, and it makes me sad.  It makes me sad because I genuinely believed that things were never going to work out for us.  Statistics, brought me to that place, but let's just tuck that all away and call it the dark ages. 

We tried one last cycle as a final hail mary.  After being told by numerous doctors I was going to have twins on every single cycle... we were told these embryos looked horrible and wouldnt take.  We were asked if we even wanted to complete the transfer.  I told Tom yes, he cried, I cried, and I just said... Jesus... take the wheel.  These people dont know what they are talking about.  I believed in that instant, that there was a higher power that had a plan for us.  Then I just said whatever will be will be.

Well, after a difficult pregnancy, early onset pre-eclampsia,  gestational diabetes, a one month hospital stay, a 24 day hospital stay in NICU we finally brought home my baby girl Kora. It is just mind blowing.  My life has changed so much since then.  This little girl, she's changed our whole world.  To say we are happy.... that doesn't do it justice.  We are disgustingly happy.  The kind of happy that has seen the dark side, and is eternally grateful for the gift that we have received.  She will be 2 shortly.  It's unbelievable.  

When I originally started this blog, I had hoped that one day... one day... this blog would be called "things couldn't be better" and it would be the God's honest truth.  I can honestly say, things have been great.  We had a rough start, but things are sickeningly, amazingly, awesomely great right now.

For those of you still in the trenches, I would tell you, dont give up.  You might have to change the game plan, but hang in there and keep the hope alive.  I hope to keep blogging, about life, and whatever I feel like.  I've missed you all.