Wish me luck... Whatever that means

I'm about to go to the RE... I'm multitasking while I'm there. I have to visit with this woman about embryo donation. Why? I don't know, but they tell me I have to do it, so I am. I sort of feel like I'm on a 20/20 special getting scammed on a pretty consistant basis. Like the baby ransom money we previously gave them wasn't enough. After that, I have to get a Sonohysterogram. This is the test where they hook your cervix up to a catheter, fill your uterus with saline, and explore with the ultrasound. Cycle day 5 just happened to occur on a day I already had an appointment, I'm certain I will be billed two copays. :) (is there a sarcasm smiley face because a wink does not seem appropriate). The outcome of today's test will determine if I have to have surgery again. They will be checking for polyps. They already know I have endometriosis. So this means if they spot a polyp, they schedule surgery, and I get a drill bit to my belly button again. I'm alright with everything else they do, all of the other incisions, but for the love of Christ and all things holy could you leave my belly button alone! my belly button just stopped looking like it needed anal bleaching cream from my previous surgery a year ago. Dilemma: "they" say, and by "they", I mean the people who bill you and the insurance company, say that you are most fertile after this... Clean out the cobweb uterine surgery. So I'm having a difficult time figuring out what kind of outcome I'm hoping for here. Especially with this frozen embryo transfer coming up. By not wanting this surgery am I hoping for a failed FET? So wait, am I hoping for another drill bit to the belly button? Are you confused? So am I! Ps. Do you ever look at the google search results that show how people find you blog? Well you won't believe how many people are looking for baby diaper cakes and I'm sure are very disappointed when they are greeted with the tampon cake!